Tuesday, December 9, 2008 :: 7:03 AM

i'm worried...for myself... next year i'm going to be all alone again
abandoned. end of story. haru haru i feel like i'm slipping off into a world no one knows
these days i have 0 friend contact
i'm scared of making contact
everybody seems to be happy except for me..why ? well yes i am mean to be people but that does not mean i do not like a person. everybody never sees the other side of the story..
look at meg cabot's princess diaries. lily didn't want to be friends with mia, and everyone just says lily's being mean and feels sorry for mia
guys dun you see, she has her reasons, first j.p dates her because well mia is unavailable..and all the time they were dating he was in love with mia all along
second, mia dumped her brother for her own reasoning
third, mia totally stamped on her and left her stranded at the student government LAST MINUTE!
and that's only the reasons i'm typing there are many reasons why mia is seriously the one who caused her own misfortunes
i'm not saying it;s all mia's fault but partly...yes it's her fault

so ...why can't somebody relise that basically i have my reasons if i'm mean to you
i'm all alone ...
next year would be worse i wonder who i could turn to next year
i guess i'm destined to be.. a loner in this cold bitter world
i'm trapped in a hole watching the day passing by...haru haru하루 하루
i could not escape...
tired, i dun even dare to show my face and go out...how pathetic of me

- Y staring out into the night